I'll be at school in the middle of a lesson, and just want to burst out crying, but can't. And then I come home, and my mum is super supportive and everything, but if I came in crying everyday she would be so worried. I only have one person I can talk to; Anita. I know I go on about her as my bestmate a lot, but recently she told me she's exactly the same, which made me feel so much better. I swear most people hardly EVER cry, and I thought "am I abnormal?" but I don't think it's a crime to want to let your emotions out, and talk about it with someone who understands. I can literally get upset over anything that makes me feel sad. So my bestmate has been with her boyfriend for 10 months, the other 8months, then one of my mates just goes from one guy to the next(despite none are nice) and one doesn't date any, but has loads of guys who like her, and i'm just like, great. Without sounding conceited, I don't think that it's not that I couldn't find the perfect boy, but both my friends in proper relationships met their boyfriends when they've been out, and don't live very near, plus I go to an all girls' school which doesn't help. I've only been out with a couple of guys, and only ever really liked a guy once, a couple of years ago, but it ended over some pretty bloody fight he had with my friend. I always look back on situations and think "what if everything happened differently?" Then today my friend was telling me about her guy dilemma and I just said "Look I feel for you, but I would rather have a dilemma, than have no guy at all" I just makes me so unbelievably upset.
Sorry for my rant, thank you for listening:') <3
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releasing
it's good to release your worries with crying! i fear i'll be alone for the rest of my life! :'( so i cry too.. i understand what you are going through my dear! if u need a shoulder i am here!